sorry being so childish..

ppl smoke whn thy r stress..
thou i hate bt i finally learned..
gt alot of trouble around me..
D couple alry..he is so blissful again..
i love 2 see him happy..i knw i hurt him much..he is oly 18++ and he can think very mature..
ppl say gal r usually more mature thn guys..but he is not..
im the childish 1..

C and his beloved gal gal must be happy too..
F told me b4, the most powerful love is "greeting ya love 1 blissful with other"
i will keep remind myself..
i jus 1 whn 1 day i saw C..v can be real real real close..lk playful brother n sister..
im not meant 2 be his sister lar..i don 1 2 fight with M o..
haha..
jus close fren..at least i knw he love me b4 n nt playing my feeling..
i really will appreciate tht month.. is really a wonderful memories 2 me..
thou the returning is alot of monts of sadness..
tht is bcoz i still haven let go it..
im older than u..i will think mature..
beta take care yaself at kem..drink more water and don gt noti..
ltr kena punish..if can stop smoking..nt good ler..
and must must must keep loving her..
don lk lastim hurt her d..at least pity her..
if yes, u won gt her bac d de lar..
i knw at kem 99% guys also will ai mei ai mei lk tht de..
NO CHANCE!! think tht u still hv her..don make stupid choice..

F din find me lu..y ler?
haix..i ask back..bt he don1..
i think he sick of break up d..
haix..sorry..
i make stupid mistake as C make..
my life hv so many diff guys..
hope he can soon success in his career nw..
study hard n gambateh..

Should i give u a chance S?
i been thinkin 4 long time..
im not don lk u..it jus i still hv C in my mind..
i really wanted 2 hv new life with u..jus no confidence weather i can do it or not..
n u sem lk wanted 2 let go d..
i also not dare 2 ask..
haix..

wat should i do..
answer nw..

i think i will consider lesbian 1 day if i turn real crazy...
hahahaha..