haha..curi curi smoking o...haha.. paiseh paiseh..

confusing..

i miss someone tht i shouldn miss..
suppose 2 let go alry de..
y jus cant..
v jus met..y jus cant..
haix..
gambateh..i will de..
paiseh paiseh..sendiri advise sendiri..
keke^^

Good Result

is 18 june..zi lin frm baking, thn alvin xiong xiong frm baking too.. our big chef Andy frm culinary and me!! Culinary arts + baking in team!! tht 1 is our product, Golden Pastry Pasta..
V got 1st and will get cert soon for tht.. Liz our principle said tht our product hv six star presentation..happy happy..Good job!!

Me and Mei Hui taken b4 go movie on Wednesday..Love cha!

Take a closer look at our product.. pasta in the pastry puff basket.. and the most special is the fried spaghetti behind it as decoration.. All by our own frm me n my group + andy..

Vanilla sponge with coffee butter cream cake..

i made it my own..haha..cool man..

Good memory r coming..check out rapidly oo..

He is not perfect!!

can i continue telling myself he is not perfect anymo..
he is not cute enuf..
he is not tall enuf..
he is not rich enuf..
he is not mature enuf..
he is not good enuf..
he is not superhero enuf..

he do stupid things..
he neva think of gals feeling..
he used my $..
he neva buy me a gift..
he didn appreaciate me..
he is a jerk tht playing me!!

important is..
he is not loyal enuf..

i.......going 2 close ya chapter and move on..

I start 2 miss..

is tis a good start tht i finally started 2 miss somebody else..
smt i will rmmbr C de..he stil the 1 tht give such happy days 2geta..
bt i hv told C n myself tht v will maintain a good relation as fren in future..
cos he also gt gf d ma..
nw i just 1 a very blissful n long couple relationship..
dunno whn oly will happen ler..
n dunno who ia the guy ler..
sudden miss family de feeling tim..
miss my mom very much..if she still here i think i will love my mom deeply nw..
cos alry grown up n understand situation..

i 1 some1 tht love me treat me good..
i 1 the days 1 family go out shop shop..
miss tht..
miss everything happy in my life!!

take care..
over thr 3 months is not short n not long..
wish u all the best..
must happy o..
i gonna miss u much..
hope everything fine 2 u..
good luck and i alwis said......Gambateh!!!
muaxies!!

sorry being so childish..

ppl smoke whn thy r stress..
thou i hate bt i finally learned..
gt alot of trouble around me..
D couple alry..he is so blissful again..
i love 2 see him happy..i knw i hurt him much..he is oly 18++ and he can think very mature..
ppl say gal r usually more mature thn guys..but he is not..
im the childish 1..

C and his beloved gal gal must be happy too..
F told me b4, the most powerful love is "greeting ya love 1 blissful with other"
i will keep remind myself..
i jus 1 whn 1 day i saw C..v can be real real real close..lk playful brother n sister..
im not meant 2 be his sister lar..i don 1 2 fight with M o..
haha..
jus close fren..at least i knw he love me b4 n nt playing my feeling..
i really will appreciate tht month.. is really a wonderful memories 2 me..
thou the returning is alot of monts of sadness..
tht is bcoz i still haven let go it..
im older than u..i will think mature..
beta take care yaself at kem..drink more water and don gt noti..
ltr kena punish..if can stop smoking..nt good ler..
and must must must keep loving her..
don lk lastim hurt her d..at least pity her..
if yes, u won gt her bac d de lar..
i knw at kem 99% guys also will ai mei ai mei lk tht de..
NO CHANCE!! think tht u still hv her..don make stupid choice..

F din find me lu..y ler?
haix..i ask back..bt he don1..
i think he sick of break up d..
haix..sorry..
i make stupid mistake as C make..
my life hv so many diff guys..
hope he can soon success in his career nw..
study hard n gambateh..

Should i give u a chance S?
i been thinkin 4 long time..
im not don lk u..it jus i still hv C in my mind..
i really wanted 2 hv new life with u..jus no confidence weather i can do it or not..
n u sem lk wanted 2 let go d..
i also not dare 2 ask..
haix..

wat should i do..
answer nw..

i think i will consider lesbian 1 day if i turn real crazy...
hahahaha..

Beer doesn't help anymo

Yesterday i drink alot..
but i stil manage to think alot of unhappiness..
i see alot of couple around me and feel real lonely tht time..
keep searchin ppl 2 chat with me but all of them seem lk don hv the heart 2 sms me d..
feel so useless..cant manage 2 keep ppl i lk as fren..
all of them r jus running away frm me..
am i really tht trouble to u guys?
i wish i jus can vanish frm here..
thn u guys and i will end and neva think nymo..
kl trouble..ipoh trouble..whr should i belong to?
whr?
haix..me so trouble..
stif said i hv 2 go on lk tis 4 long time..haix..how 2 go? real hard..

He is a good supporter..

he give me alot of support..
thx 2 him..i still will think bout my past de..
bt i will also keep remind myself..bout wat he said 2 me tht nite..
he said..no matter how awful i look lk nw..no matter how i hurt myself..
he won knw..
he will jus happy over thr..
he alry choosen her..he alry make his choice..so is not worth 4 me 2 do smt lk tht..
n ar..he say my mom take k me till 19 years..is not logic lor if i care bf more thn my mom..
so i will think bout tht..
i wan faster faster 4gt him..
i knw he will be happy..
im glad too..bt smt i feel sad too..
sorry 2 all my frens..i created some 'lines' at my waist thr again..
thx 4 u guys support..
love u guys..i will make myself happy n happy more..
muaxies!!

hurt feeling just won stop..

i saw tht pic o..
he live happily lo..he with her d..
i tot i hv let go him..
bt i write tis post with eyes full of tears..
i hope i neva knw him!!
i 1 him bac..bt he choosen her bac d..
y i make such a choice..
i hate myself!!!

He is making me feel the way he felt..

he is making me feel so cant concentrate in life..
is it bcos i really let go someone tht real important alry n now thr is no turning back?
i suppose to hv alot of bad side bout him few months ago...
he is not good enuf..
left gf alone at ipoh n go jb..
smt din mention whr he go n make me feel damn scare n hv 2 call her mom or sis 2 confirm tht he is fine.
bt y nw seem lk all tis is not important alry..
am i really regret n nw i started 2 miss my life with it?
or itz bcos nw he is treating other gal good n im selfish wish 2 gt him back?
haix..
i very fan ar..
jus hope all tis will fast fast past..
i feel so sorry and finally i und ya feeling nw..
is all my punishment i wil get 4 letting go u..
ashame..
bt is fate tht i knw C..n i feel real happy with him..too bad is fate again..
i cant hold tight both D n C..
i think i goin 2 wait 4 the new 1..
no more turning back..
wish D happy ever after with ppl he love n wanted 2 hold tight..
i think "hold u tight " mean he alry wanted 2 permenantly have her in life..

i........hv 2 go through myself..

scare alry lor...

everytime whn a started 2 gt close 2 a group of frens..
smt will ruin it..
haix..
i jus join thm tis week playing crazy stuff..
bt 2day two of thm seem lk playing some love games..
slp, eat and play 2 geta..
ignoring other..
y hv 2 be lk tht..the guy also gt gf d lo..
jus cm here study oly ma..
nw i seem lk bein dump 2 aside d..
haix..
she say it rite..
thr is no pure friendship between a gal n a boy..
vry haix ar..

1st june life!!

Renee.. Alvin xiong xiong.. miss mei hui banana.. little hui yin and niang niang ah seng..

haha

2day very boring ma..

go yum cha..thn suddenly wana play o..ma do stupid things lo..

now only scare neighbour complain oly..

hahaha..wakakakaka..

if "he" is here too also very fun ar..too bad no o..

haix..

nvm lar..

my life got up n down..

im not gonna disturb nymo..gua..